Before I start, I need to remind you that all of these are just my opinion and are based on my experiences. I never had a boyfriend, so I may not be fit to tell you these and you’ll probably say that I am inexperienced. But I did fell in love a lot of times.
Well, love for me is to have somebody that accepts your fats and all. Accepting you flaws and never-before-seen sides. If I am going to be asked, I want to fell in love with my guy-bestfriend. But I didn’t have one, just to make things clear. I can be my trueself in front of him. Be kikay, without hearing, ‘Ang arte naman nito’. Be funny without hearing, ‘Ang corny mo’. Be truthful by saying ‘I like you’, without hearing, ‘Desperada!’.
I have one crush when I was in High School and I honestly, pure-heartedly said that I like him. Just because I didn’t want to have any regrets after. And I was going away for London. We used to talk every single night but at school, we barely say hi to each other. And then months after, he already have a girlfriend which hurt me a lot. Seeing them everyday at school was a real heartbreak for me. I did feel betrayed but I know I didn’t have to the right to. And after all that, we didn’t talk anymore.
That’s why I promised to myself that I won’t initiate anything. And so, my latest crush goes on with his new life without telling him that I liked him. Well, maybe I’ll tell him when I am going away for a vaca in the Philippines or maybe not.